Gotta have a post before the New Year begins right? Guess so…
Two thousand and nine. All I’m sayin is…this has been one adventure of a year. I can’t even believe all that’s gone on around and within me. As I’ve been looking back at this year’s journey with the Lord lately, my heart is just so thankful. Theme of the year? The Lord is faithful. Always.
He was faithful in every circumstance of this year. From giving me the grace to get through high school despite my senioritis to hooking everything up with getting me to Fire in the Night and being right by my side in the transition being back home after. Though it was hard at times my heart is just so happy when I think about how He’s weaved Himself into each circumstance and made each one, no matter how small, a testimony of His love and faithfulness to come through when we press on with the eyes of faith, especially with the whole Fire in the Night story. If you wanna hear an amazing testimony of favor and provision, ask me to tell you how He got me out there, it makes me so happy every time I tell it đ
While the circumstance stuff is amazing, what I treasure even more than those things are the ways He’s shown Himself faithful to my heart this whole year. The inner healing that the Lord brought to my heart is incredible and He was so just so faithful to lead me and guide me through it all. He was really there for every step. It really hurt at times don’t get me wrong but I knew it was the safest place for me to be. I huge lesson I’ve learned this year is to just give the Lord everything in my heart, the things I never gave to Him before. It’s as if I finally believe that He really does know the best way and I don’t have to hold onto my ways of gratifying the desires of my heart anymore. I feel like I always knew that I should surrender certain things in my heart to the Lord but I still resorted to dealing with issues in my own way, thinking that my way would make me feel better for good. Well, it didn’t and He won đ My heart just feels sold on surrender because I’ve experienced the fruit of what happens when you do. When you finally stop trying your own way and come to the only Way. It’s all through Him. Restoration. Healing. Wholeness. Freedom. It’s all through Him.
I’m eternally grateful for the places He’s taken me, people He’s given me, and truths He’s revealed to me all throughout  2009. Not only for the things that I’ve seen right in front of me, but also for all He’s done behind the scenes. I feel like we sometimes forget or don’t realize that there’s probably soooooooooooo many things He’s done beneath the surface of our lives that are going to be so amazing to see one day. Thank You Jesus for your right hand that embraces me and Your left hand that upholds me.
I could go on and on about this year probably. Like I said, the year in summation? The Lord is Faithful. Faithful and True. That’s His name. As I look towards 2010 I can’t deny that I’m not a little nervous. This is the first year in my whole 19 years of breathing that I have no idea whatsoever about where I’ll be, what I’ll be doing, all that stuff. But it does feel a little adventurous and exciting at the same time.
So let the games begin 8)