Waiting

A couple weeks ago the Lord gave me this really cool revelation about waiting that I wanted to share with the world . I was recently asking Him to speak into the timing for something in my life and I got the answer that I didn’t want to hear at first. “Wait.” Praise the Lamb for His patience with me because it took another couple of weeks before I actually came into agreement with what He said and was okay with it. And then He gave me an awesome picture of why He sometimes tells us to wait.

Most of you know that I watch a little girl named Sadie Mae during the week. One morning she wanted to eat a cheese stick. So I took it out of the fridge but when I went to take the wrapper off she got really fussy. She wanted to have it right away. She kinda does that every once in a while with things like cheese sticks or oranges, basically things that I have to get ready for her to be able to actually eat it. I had this thought in my head like, “I don’t really get why she’s getting upset if she sees that I have to do this for her to be able to eat it.” And right there the Holy Spirit so encouraged my heart about my period of waiting. He basically showed me that He’s not just asking me to wait in the sense that He’s just sitting around and deciding the wait is over whenever. He showed me that there’s a wait because there’s a process. Just like when the cheese stick deal, Sadie had to wait because I was opening it. I wasn’t just holding it out in front of her and having her wait for no reason. I had to do something to fully prepare it for her. That just gives me so much hope my season of waiting. It made me realize that the Lord is actively involved. When He asks us to wait on Him it’s because He’s got some preparation stuff to do in our hearts, circumstances, or whatever. And when the waiting period is over, we seem to always come out leaning a little more on our Beloved.

So take heart if the Lord’s asked you to wait for something. I think it can apply to anything really. Trust that He’s doing stuff. And when He brings it to pass it’ll be way worth the wait and you’ll probably be blown away by how awesome His ways were throughout the whole process

“I wait for the Lord, my soul waits, and in His word I put my hope.” (Psalm 130:5)

Old Post from Dec. 3rd

I recently made a post on facebook about I just really enjoy filling up a journal. Tonight I just finished writing the last few words of my journal that I’ve been keeping since I got to Ellensburg. For some reason I just love the feeling of holding the journals that I finished up, flipping through the pages, and looking over the different moments of revelation, pain, rejoicings, fun, etc. All that stuff can really be summed up in one word though: transformation.

It’s so awesome to be able to have documented heart history with the Lord that you can look back on. You can see how you’ve grown but what means even more so to me is being able to see how the Lord was transforming my heart in the midst of every stroke of ink and page. I get to see His faithfulness. I get to see the times where I was so desperate for Him and then read the next day or two later where He came and answered me. I get to see where I had a question or even a bypassed thought but soon after there’d be some sort of answer or clarity. I get to see all sorts of stuff and it’s just so beautiful.

He’s takin’ care of business, everyday.

One of the things that’s really hard about the Lord bring healing to an area of your heart or dealing with a certain issue that He’s highlighting, is that He really is changing you even when you don’t feel it. It’s the place between being aware of what those things are yet still feeling like no progress is being made. I’ve experienced this a bunch, it’s something we all go through as Christians I think cause He’s transforming us every day, always making us more like Him. What gives me peace though is that He really is changing me each day. His word says that all I have to do is look at Him and He changes me, for real. Not only am I not who I was say, a year ago, but I’m not who I was even yesterday. Having faith in this is what keeps me going forward. It gives me strength for another day to continue to give Him all that’s in my heart that needs His touch. A lot of times the enemy can come in and make us feel like nothing is going on inside of us cause we don’t feel anything. But faith isn’t based on feelings or what we can see right in front of us. That’s why it’s faith right? This is just another way that we can exercise our faith muscle. It doesn’t only happen when we have to trust the Lord in a greater way in our circumstances, but in trusting Him with our hearts as well. Trusting that He’s doing things that we aren’t even aware of everyday. Amazing things. Beautiful things. When we focus on our weaknesses we lose sight of His strength that is so incredibly and freely available to us.

So whether the Lord’s working on some inner healing stuff in you or showing you places in your heart where you’ve agreed with pride or anger or fear of man or impatience, whatever it is, just know that He’s doing something. He really is. I’m kinda writing this to tell myself that, ya know, like an “oh my soul” type deal but it’s for whoever “you” are too. You really are being transformed. He really is helping you. When He shows you something He wants to deal with, just give it to Him and know by faith that He’s exchanging something with you because He really really is. Imagine Him placing more of Himself in those very places of your heart that you’re giving Him. It’s like He plants a seed there. It may be a little while till you see the fruit but you’ll see it and  you don’t have to make it grow. He’s good at that . I heard this amazing saying once, “What He reveals, He heals.” That simple phrase has helped me so much. Knowing that when He shows me something He wants to work on or clean up, He’s going to do something redemptive with that. It’s not just to show me how much work I need to make me feel bad or something. What He reveals, He heals. Always.

As I was lying in bed just now, thinking about all this, the Holy Spirit put this song in my head. It’s kinda funny, I actually replied with, “Are youu serriouuus?” haha but He is and it totally relates. The lyrics that I started to hear in my head were,

“I’m taking care of business (every day)
Taking care of business (every way)
I’ve been taking care of business (it’s all mine)
Taking care of business and working overtime”

Awesome right ? So just rest knowing that Holy Spirit is takin’ care of business. Everday .

“But we all with unveiled face beholding as in a mirror the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from glory to glory just as by the Holy Spirit.” (2 Cor 3:18)