I Will Watch & Pray

I heard Lou Engle say once that “sometimes God comes searching for us in songs.” So true. You know those moments where you’re chillen with Jesus, listening to a song and your heart just gets rocked? It’s like something new gets sealed on your heart, a revelation or reality that seems to comes outta no where.

I had that moment with this one specific song last summer that I’ve been thinking about lately. It’s called “All My Devotion” off of Kristene Mueller’s CD “Those Who Dream” (which I HIGHLY recommend to anyone who doesn’t have it yet, serious good times with Jesus). The whole song in general for me seems to sum up the visions and heart cries of my life. But there’s this one specific line that really brought about one of those “sealing” moments in my heart. The verses are:

“And I know you don’t come as easy as some, but I will watch and pray, I will watch and pray…”

Before I came across this song, I was kinda going through a time where all these accusations and doubts were being thrown my way about the validity of the lifestyle I’ve given myself to in following the Lord and specifically just what I’ve given myself to regarding prayer and all that jazz. I love how the Lord uses songs to bring breakthrough and clear up our vision though! When the song came to this part it was like something shifted inside me. I feel like those words gave me language for a confession of commitment to the Lord. That even though I could run to things that offer some sort of instant gratification, I will still stand with You Jesus. No matter how different my life may look compared to the status quo, or how different Your ways are compared to the ways of this world, it doesn’t matter. I’m still in this with You and I’ll stay the course. I will watch and pray.

One of the girls from youth group had this awesome picture she shared at bible study a while back that totally relates to this whole reality too.  She explained how we’re like these little seeds that are growing to become trees. As we grow we have a choice of where we want to drink our water from; we can either drink from the world or from Jesus. She went on to say that if we drink from the waters this world has to offer it’s because they seem easier to get. But “if you wait and thirst for Jesus you will never thirst again and begin to branch out and spread the love of Jesus.” I love that. It’s the same thing.

So if you’ve been feelin’ some of the stuff that I was feelin’ just be encouraged friends. It’s not in vain and He’s more than worth it. Let this be your confession of love too as you run the race and follow the Lamb

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Epic fail Brittany, epic fail…

… yeaaaah I didnt exaaactly update by blog while I was at IHOP And there’s no way I could put into words all that’s happened in my heart these last 3 months. I’ll attempt to but I assure you, it’s almost imposiblee my amigo.

I’ll list a couple of main things that I think of when I look back at these 3 months. I’m gonna try and write a post for each one. Try. .

#1. Jesus is the only One found worthy to be adored night and day, 24/7, for all of eternity. It’s been going on in the throne room forever and now it’s time to bring it to the earth.

#2. The value of our weak “yes” and glance to the Lord. This is one of the foundation things that’s impacted my heart while I was there, a reality that’s changed the way I interact with God, so beautiful.

#3. The dignity of intercession. It’s glorious beyond words and I’ve only just, just, juuuuuust begun to see the beauty of it.

#4. The fellowship and love from everyone that I experienced was unlike anything I’ve ever known or thought I could. Unity and the brotherly love we’re called to walk in is one of the greatest joys and gifts we can have.

#5. The beauty of the NightWatch. The NightWatch will always have a special place in my heart and all I’m sayin is…whenever I go back to IHOP, even just to visit, I will be switchin to nights every time

#6. Jesus, the Father, and Holy Spirit are so different from what we think they are, so different than what we grew up hearing and it’s been blowing my mind, just the emotions of God…crazyness.

#7. I really am fearfully and wonderfully made and my soul is still in the process of knowing it full well

#8. Matthew 5, 6, and 7 really has to be my source and my life. For reals.

#9. The word “beloved” is beauuuutiful

#10. I can’t do anything without Him. My goodness is nothing apart from Him and I never want to stray from that reality.

That’s all I got right now. I really do wanna try and keep this updated as much as possible but we’ll see how that goes. I just love sharin what the Lord’s shown me with others so I hope you’ll be blessed in some way, whoever “you” are .

Much love!