The Season’s Are A-changin’

Just about two months ago I had a very important sit down with the Lord. The result of that sit down now brings me to my last couple days in Jersey (at least for a while) where this Friday I will be heading out to the West to Ellensburg, Washington. These last two months have been such a roller coaster and so great for my heart, despite how “great” it felt at times lol. Back in the beginning of May, I remember sharing this revelation I got with Jenna and Dora one night. I was reading through Exodus and that day was on Chapter 10 and the first couple verses say:

Then the Lord said to Moses, “Go to Pharaoh, for I have hardened his heart and the ears of his officials so that I may perform these miraculous signs of mine among them, that you may tell your children and grandchildren how I dealt harshly with the Egyptians and how I performed my signs among them, and that you may know that I am the Lord.”

Pretty much immediately after I read that the Lord gave me this phrase, “I’m more interested in winning your heart than just giving you what you want right away.” Think about it, the Lord could have just plucked the Jews right out of Egypt but for sooooome reason He chose to do it the way we read in Exodus. So much drama and extravagance. Why? He was in the process of wooing their hearts. It was more than just getting the Jews out of Egypt. He wanted their hearts and all those signs and wonders were to point to the fact that He is the Lord and the pursuer of their hearts. When I first got this revelation I was just super excited cause it’s really cool but what I realized a couple weeks later was that that was actually a word for me lol. The Lord could have just made all this stuff with getting to Washington happen overnight. He can do anything. But He chose to do it sooooooooo specifically and full of crazy details and twists and turns because He wanted my heart to fall more in love with Him. More than getting me to Ellensburg, He wanted me to learn more about His nature and His faithfulness. When I re-think over the past two months and all the ups and downs of my heart, the moments of waiting, the breakthroughs, all I keep telling Him is, “You are crazy” and it’s a compliment I promise lol. For real though, I’m just in awe of who He is, how He moves on my behalf. Nuts.

Now, all my stuff is packed and it’s just two days till Drew and I leave. A week from today I will actually be in Ellensburg! I’m feeling a lot of things all at once. The Lord got me through the nervousness stuff and I’ve just been feeling more excited about what Him and I are gonna do in my life really. It all feels kind of surreal to be honest too. I have nooooo clue what’s gonna go down but I know it’s gonna be good .

Oh, and I’m gonna try and do a blog post each day of the trip, maybe throw in some video blogs on facebook or something too 8) .

There’s Something Bigger Going On

My fam is watching Transformers downstairs right now. My dad’s got the surround sound all hooked up so its extra dramatic and intense. I just walked down there and there was some hardcore Transformer fighting action going on and I couldnt resist to look upon the action. The music was all epic-like complete with sounds of things getting hurled about and dramatic dialogue. Something about all that does something to my heart, its like something gets awakened. No, not the fighting transformers and plots of Hollywood. But rather that sense of adventure and suspense. Something in my spirit goes, “I want to experience something like that, I was made to.”

It reminds me of something I heard Brent Steeno say one time. He was talking about this sort of thing, how we’re part of something so much bigger and exciting than anyone could dream up. He told this story about how he had just seen the Chronicles of Narnia movie and when he left the theater he had this thought of “Man, I wish I was involved in something exciting like that.” And the Lord spoke to Him right there and basically told him that the he is apart of something far more adventurous and exciting than any hollywood movie could ever portray.

Now, as true as that is, something in my heart still struggles yet yearns to believe that. It’s like I know that and it excites my heart, but sometimes the sounds of Hollywood just seem more legit and entertaining. And tonight as I felt that excitement get touched again it just made me wonder, “What in the world is this story that I am apart of Lord? If I think this is so exciting, what do You have in store for my life. I want this story, Your story, to be the most exhilarating adventure that farpasses everything that I could imagine.”

Moments like these just make me realize how much more I need to get connected to the Lord’s heart and who He is. Cause the truth is, we really were made for fascination, we were made to tremble, we were made for adventure. And now I just have this longing in my heart to truly experience the Lord in a deeper way that fascinates me to my core, causes me to tremble before Him, and give myself to this insane adventure He’s invited us on. I truly believe that if we really give ourselves to living to be fascinated by the beauty of God all the days of our lives, we will not be disappointed. It’s impossible.

I want to get to a place of exhilaration with the Lord that causes my heart to say, “Hollywood ain’t got nothing on this…”