Before I came back to Jersey I had a talk with my lovely roomate Dora about what we felt like we were going back into when we were going home. And basically we came to a similiar conclusion for both of us…it’s time for the wilderness. She was going to the “wild” (short for wilderness) and I was going into the “pre-wild.” The only reason I think I called it a “pre-wild” though was because I didn’t think it was going to be super long, didn’t expect to be in Jersey for a long time, no major year-age going on in the wilderness. But in reality, who am I to say it couldn’t be longer? I have no clue but I guess we’ll find out.
As much as I would have loved to say at IHOP, I knew before I left that coming back here was the best thing for my heart. I probably never thought that I would say that but it’s true. All I know is that something has to get grounded in my heart, something has to happen with my relationship with Jesus that can only happen in this context at this time in my life and I can’t go back there until whatever that “something” is happens. As much as IHOP will always be a home for me, I gotta get to know Him as my home first and foremost. It’s so easy to be all “blaaaahh the wildernessssssss” but in reality, the truth that I have to keep speaking over myself is that it’s a beautiful and glorious gift and as “blaaah” as I may get, I know it’s exactly what I need.
So after being home for two weeks and sorting through all the frustrations and what not, I really have come to a place of knowing that this is right where the Lord wants me and I’m not gonna lack anything, even here. Buuut I wouldn’t go as far as to say that I’m excited about being home lol Let’s just say the Lord has some stuff to shift in my heart if I end up being here for more than a year. So You gotta help me out here Dude, hardcore. And the best part is that He will. I love that He loves to teach me and He’s not gonna leave me hanging. All I have to do is admit that I need help, ask Him, and He’s on it, I so love that about Him. His faithfulness and the way He deals with our hearts blows my mind.
So as Dora says to me again and again, “Give it up for the pre-wild!”
I’ll leave ya with some notes and quotes that I took down from Bob Sorge. He was in Jersey this past Sunday and had some awesome things to say. Enjoy 
- David was the only one quoted by Jesus on the cross
- “What kind of journey do you have to walk to be someone that Jesus quotes?” (this blew my mind, Jesus used David’s words as His own on the cross, it just hit me how much of a friend of God David was, he really did connect with the heart of God, it’s like you can’t tell where David ends and the Lord begins sometimes…it’s being one with Him)
- Hebrew 10:19 – have boldness to enter the Holiest by the blood of Jesus = instant intimacy
- What’s the holiest place in the universe? The bosom of the Father
- Holiness is about where you are, you become a holy one not because of who you are (what you do and all that) but because of where you are.
- “He didn’t die for you to visit the throne room. He died for you to live in the throne room.”
